I can only be this one thing I see!

I can only be this one thing I see! What do I see? Good question!

 Hey you?

 ME?

Yes you?

What about me?

I don’t know what about you?

I don’t know about me either…………this is the question I ask myself every day, as I wake to a new dawn each day and  strike the candle of meditation with  my first cup of Jo….. But every time I search myself it’s always someone else I see. These thoughts run through my mine like LP vinyl of yesterday or the repetitive play of the 8 track; why, how come and why again as that persistent child of enquire on just the most innocent conversation. Life is complicated and complex with all its daily challenges and what I’m doing about it?  Nothing: just writing this blog, SILLYJ Just remember with all of yesterday’s events and tomorrow’s plans are untouchable, all we have is the tangible moment. I may never know who I am, but this one thing I do know; I’m not the smartest knife in the drawer, but not the dullest either, but eventfully I cut  to chase, reach my next mile stone on life’s journey  and looking  back without regret or chose to forget it and move on to my next mile stone…….

Somewhere Beyond the Sea

Somewhere beyond the sea
somewhere waiting for me
my lover stands on golden sands
and watches the ships that go sailin'....

I just love the lyrics and melody of the Bobby Darin hit song of the days of yore. I remember when I was a young lad growing up in east side Stockton climbing an old English walnut tree in my backyard at night as if it were  a ships mask and perched in the crows nest straining  to look at the signs along CA State Rt # 99 viewing the signs that dotted the corridors way. I thought of them as monuments or landmarks to adventures that waited for me on golden sands. I often dreamed of being a swashbuckling pirate like Errol Flynn always taking my lady fair and sailing into the golden sunset, but my fears always led me down the path of least resistance. My mother often said Kenneth, if you do, what you want to accomplish, then you must tread where angels fear to tread. It’s taken me 50 plus years of my blessed life to find myself at the crossroads I face today. Suddenly single, I’m making choices that otherwise I couldn’t make being married. Yes it was a very difficult time for me but, by the grace of God and with my faith I’m blessed to have survived the ordeal, for which I had no control. So here I stand what next? Life really does come at you fast…………So where from here?